two years after the atrocity of divorce, I am still shattered. I have still not been able to return to this story but it goes on developing in the background of my mind. I have matured --or perhaps just gotten old--through the devistation of this disaster I am still enduring. when I return to this story if I am ever able to do so, it will have much more depth and clearity than the former versions.
I am working in a factory. It is mindless work for the most part so It might leave me time to ponder while working, and I might work on the story then. I've been pondering it, anyhow
I look back on what I ahve posted here and it looks all very shabby and shallow, almost shamefully so, but I am not ashamed. it was part of the proccess, part of the …
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I wrote a blog and it vanished when I published.
I’m less and less knowing how to do thisI’m gradually recovering from the complete demolition of my life and my soul by my dearest friend
I’m trying to write again but all my time and energy is consumed in working and just trying to get by
This July I am going to edit this wiki as part of my camp Nano projectRead more >
Back in the real world, where this story increasingly doesn't exist, I'm now profoundly shattered, and I no longer hold on to any hope of writing for the moment. my soul is shreadded and if I am to continue in mortal life it seems my time and energy from this point on may have to be entirely channeled into working for very low wages to pay the rent and the huge debts I unjustly received when my "eternal companion" beterayed the family entirely by divorcing me in a very hostile spirit. am I just being overdramatic? No it's actually far more painful than I am able to put into words, nothing I could write would do it justice. that overdramatic nonsense is just an objecctive description of the very surface of the pain and disfuntion I am passi…Read more >
November is the Month of Nano.
For Nano this year I chose to begain a complete re-write and completion of Destiny of dreams. Although I have had many other things going on in my life and thus little time for focused writing, I have been keeping my word count caught up bareley and in so doing filling in alot of gaps in world creation and backstory which will be very helpful in my being able to writ a complete story when the time comes and i am able to actually take time to write.
The approach I am taking is I am wring the story over from the begining [arriving at the planet, not the newstart begining] and when I come to somehting thatraises backstory questions I stop and answer them I've been stuck at the inn with Dara Jeen for a week or so…Read more >
The NaNo project didn't go well, but was still productive. Although I "won" nano, I did not write a complete story. However, I did alot of very helpful charactor development and world building. I have also started a picture book based on the first part of the Nano.
Although I have done very little actual focused writing in the past year I've been doing alot of thinking and I am feeling very ready to do some much better writing as soon as I have my life in order enough to take some time out for more focused writing. The same is true with artwork. I am feeling very hopeful about my progress on all aspects of this project.Read more >